Crisis / Financial Support Needed

August 22, 2025

My mental health “healing journey” started seven years ago when I moved to Montana. It has essentially been my part time job. I’ve reached a point where I feel I need to go to a residential, inpatient treatment program.

I have been approved for a 45 day program in Arizona. That’s a lot of days, that’s a lot of logistics, that’s a financial burden.

Make no mistake, the last seven years have shown that modern medicine and technology actually works, when you put in the grueling mental health work. I’m here to prove it.

When they told me my dad died 16 years ago, I had very little reaction. This is not normal. Especially for a 15 year old. I went completely numb and dissociated for 12 years.

  • Now I’m crying all over the place and 60% of the time I don’t know why. Sometimes I figure it out, three days later!

  • I’m finally feeling more than two emotions, they are out of control and I have to learn how to regulate them.

  • I’ve learned what some of my triggers are and I need help navigating when they pop up.

  • I’ve recently been going long periods without eating, not intentionally. It is now critical that we work on this new, complex, unspecified eating disorder.

I feel completely out of control of my body, in so many ways, and I need help reclaiming it. I have to learn how to be a human. I can’t achieve that in a one hour therapy session, once a week. I can’t achieve that with a full time job. I can’t achieve that with the state of the freakin world in my face all the time.

I am hoping to go in October 2025. I already barely live paycheck to paycheck. The income I will lose: $3634.92

If you’d like to help financially, here is a breakdown of major expenses:

  • Co-pay: $1750

  • Two Months Rent: $2590

  • Bills/Utilities: $160

  • Travel: $150

    = Total w/ $50 round up: $4700

I know literally almost everyone is struggling financially. Please do what you feel you can. That $0.45 to round up might ease my anxiety. Messages, love, prayers, good vibes, breaking the stigma, remembering people are very good at faking smiles. Anything means everything right now.

This is real. I hate it a lot. It’s terrifying. But I’m still doing it.

Thank you for your continued support.

August 30, 2025

Goal well exceeded!

I am incredibly grateful for the messages of support, the little things, the big things, the donations. This is a very scary and tumultuous time for me. Knowing I have my own supportive community is absolutely huge. Folks I’ve never even met, folks I haven’t talked to in over ten years, folks near and far. Thank you for helping me get the help I need. Thank you. Thank you.

I will always be open to talking about mental health and my own journey, and I will keep fighting.

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Last Updated 10pm September 26, 2025

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If you would still like to help financially, it would certainly help with any hidden or unknown expenses.

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September 26, 2025

Thank you from my whole heart to all that have already donated and have supported me in so many various ways. New and unexpected expenses are already showing up.

I could not finish out the fiscal year (Oct 1) at work like I had hoped as I’m beginning to dissociate and become generally disoriented. Functioning is solely focused on basic survival.

I know all the logics. I know I need to do this, I still want to do this, and I know it will be a very positive investment.

But I am terrified, with so much inner turmoil, discomfort, and fragility.

I share all of this openly because I really want to show others they truly aren't alone and to advocate for themselves. Thank you for continuing to follow me and my journey.